How to live in my moment. Not yours. Mine. This is specific to me. Because why would I want you to live in my moment. Just yours. Mine is just a second like yours.
Be too afraid of uncertainty. It’s not the same as thinking of the fact that uncertainty is certain. Its not the same as being not afraid of certainty. It’s being too afraid of uncertain and still treking forward. I’m not brave enough, I’m afraid enough to be brave of uncertainty being certain.
Feel too tortured from living in the past. Relive it so much that it becomes exhausting. Torture yourself with the shame and guilt you once felt and feel it again so you never feel it again. Making you always feel it again.
Finally give in. Give up. Let go. To my moment. Resolve to the fact that this is all the certainty you get. That anything more outside of right now is uncertain and you are too afraid of this, but will be brave. To stay right in my moment. To walk ahead in the know. To the unknown. From the known.
That’s it. Several moments passed and I stayed in them. They are gone and new ones are coming as I write right now. The ones laid out, not yet laid out aren’t thought yet.
I found a great word. Here is my great word right out of Pinterest. A single Pinterest moment. I found a word in about a second I loved and left looking for words to love. It was enough.
My noun use of this word is when trees squeak. When you walk in the woods and then stop and hear the trees squeak in the breeze. I could listen for seconds. That’s it. Not hours or minutes but just a few seconds I can stand and take in the fragility of life. After a few seconds it becomes torture or painful as life is too fragile. If I go longer I absorb further than my moment. I can’t become absorbed, just slightly sprinkled on then shaken off like a dog in the rain for a second. My moment is a few seconds long of a moment. Who’s isn’t? We just have a second at a time. Then it’s gone to a new one. My new moment to stay in my moment. To allow the next.
Aspenleaf 